Can You Please Entertain?

Hmm. School started. I don't know if it's because I've been out of school for the past three years, but I can't seem to settle, and when I try I get freaked out about math or what supplies I need for art. I mean, math I know I probably need a tutor now so that I won't screw my self as the semester goes, but art? It's art, I know, "art is just finger painting and stick figures" yeah, I thought that too. But when you've never really taken an actual art class since elementary school it's a little difficult to find the supplies that the teacher wants, she says "you'll need more supplies through out the semester, but bring the essentials on Monday" and I say "what are the essentials on Monday?" she says "they're on the syllabus" I look at the syllabus and there's a shit ton of supplies I have to get, I'm worried about the cost of these supplies and she also said I don't have to get them all for monday, but when? And what the hell are the essential, the basics for art? Pencil? Pen? Markers? Paper? Scissors? Ruler? Glue? For all I know the basics could be something like a canvas, glitter, paint, and a drawing pencil. Like what is going on, I don't know if I'm making this situation more difficult because I mean... seriously? It's just art. Art is fun, it's not stick figures or finger painting anymore, I know, it's more, but I'm a creative person, I shouldn't be freaking out. Ugh. But I am, and Math can suck my... you know. I'll get through with an A or B.. I don't think a C, D, or F will do me any good. Fuck, I have to go to work. Bye!

I'm Trouble

New Years Resolution:

1. Be more organized - Have a cleaner room. When everything is in it's place life seems to feel easier. I feel like I have a clear mind when I sleep. Feeling organized at work, school, money is just so much better than worrying if I'm gonna go in debt, or wondering how many spiders are in my room, or worrying about a big homework assignment. It takes most of the worry away and thus I can think of other, more important things in life.

2. Be more independent - Not count on my boyfriend to do things for me, not count on my mom to settle down business, I need to cut the chords and go on my own. It's 2009, I'm 20 years old, I need to get on my own road. That doesn't mean I'm gonna stop talking to my mom and break-up with my boyfriend, this just means that I can't always get babied by my mom, and I can't kill my self worrying if my boyfriend is cheating, or if he's doing anything terrible. I need to not care so much, because when I do, I end up ignoring friends, and end just beating my self for being jealous and weird.

3. Carpe Diem - Yes. I know what you're probably thinking; "thats really cheesy"... but I don't care. It's 2009, I'm 20 years old, and the coolest thing I've done so far was go alone to San Francisco with my cousins.... like 8 years ago. It's time to start living life! Stop complaining, it's not gonna help the situation. Stop talking about living life and actually do it! I may have boundaries, but that doesn't mean I can't have a good time every single day. I want to have a post it note on my bag that says "live life" or something really cheesy and inspiring like that... it's not that much of a big deal to tattoo it on my self...

4. Not care about YT so much - Tats right. It's just a website. It's just subscribers. It's just like myspace. You think subscribers are gonna matter in college? Nope. You think my teachers are gonna care how many views I get on a video? Nope. You think just because I get 1,000 views in a video my mom is gonna get me something awesome? Nope. So I need to not care so much, I love YT and all the people it's introduced me to, all the things it's taught me, but it's taking over my life, and I need to stop it from becoming my life before it's too late.

5. Save up money - When I move out I wanna have at least some emergency money with, with the economy so shitty now a days, it's important to have emergency money... You never know what will happen. I might end up losing my job! I don't want to think of losing my job, but you never know, so having back up money to pay rent, etc. etc. is a good idea.

I Make No Apologies

I need to start saving up my money.
If I want to move out by September, then I should start saving my money.
Especially now that I don't have very many bills to pay.
Just in case something happens at my job, I'll have my backup money, enough to pay rent, buy food etc. etc.
I'm also writing songs for my new album. I have no idea when it'll come out.
Which also makes me think that I should probably perform more.
Further than BlogTV, of course, yup something to do in 2009.
It's December 31st 3:57pm where I live. All I ask is to receive 2009 with happiness and smiles.
No drunken fights. That would be nice.

2009

OneDoseDaily starts in less then a week.
4kickassguysand1girl season two already started.
Is it season two if nothing has changed? I dunno. Well we changed days to better fit our new sched. so thats a change, and I've moved Freaking Awesome Music Friday's to OneDoseDaily (it makes more sense that way, freaking awesome music thursdays doesn't sound too great, so thats taken care of. I'm excited for 2009 YouTube wise.

In general I'm also excited about 2009 because I start school. I'm majoring in Industrial Design. I'm ready to start school, ready to get awesome grades and be proud of my self for working hard. The only thing I hope is that I don't gain loads of weight, because I'm guessing that studying hard is going to conflict with working out. And since I have to work and hang out with friends, boyfriend, family, it might be a tad hard. But I'll manage :)

Sufjan Steven's is Jesus

I'm listening to Sufjan Steven's christmas album, and it's putting me in the christmas mood, and it's making me all happy inside :) If you thought something different when I said "it makes me happy inside" well then you need to go away now...

New things for 2009! I'm so excited. As you probably don't know (unless you're following me on twitter) I am going to be in a new collab channel, we don't know the name of it yet, but we're figuring things out, we've got the base of the channel, and most of the people, in fact I think we're missing one other person to complete our circle :) So more about the new collab channel later, just know that I'm taking Freaking Awesome Music Friday's to the new collab channel :)

I'm going to school starting January 20th, and I'm really excited about going, I'm probably end up vlogging more in my youtube channel about school and how awkward I will be. I'll take people in to my school life and it'll be fun! I also probably won't post anymore video's on Sparky6768 til 2009, I have idea's for it, idea's that will be better in 2009... well not really, I'm just gonna be busy til 2009, what with Jake's birthday next week, christmas next week, new years next week. Ahh!

I'm so excited for the new year, I have a really good feeling about 2009, like really good :) So excited for it to be 2009. Oh man!

I'm also going to be Thursday on 4kickassguysand1girl, in case you're reading this and wondering why we haven't been posting video's this last week. We're starting up again on Dec. 29th.

I ate more than the cookie... ugh.

I'm full. I shouldn't have eaten 6 of those fucking chocolate chip cookies,
and then I decided to eat chips and dip. Haha. I'm basically a skinny 20 year old disguised as a fatty :)
I'm going to denver in an hour, by bus, so that means I'll be on the bus for about an hour.
It really depends on how traffic will be.
I'm selling one of my SLR camera's to this guy. I hope he decides that he wants it, cause god knows I need the money.
He just called and told me if tomorrow at 2:30pm is ok, I told him yes.
I don't know why I'm writing that down.... but anyway.
I'm kind of tired but at the same time I'm not.
OMG! I found the greatest peak-coat at Urban Outfitters, the bad news is that its 130 dollars, but I think it's toally fine.
Usually peak-coats cost more money, so I think it's a great find :)
Tomorrow is my day off and so is Saturday and I'm totally stoked about spending some time with Jake ^^
Well this was a pointless blog.

How was your day?

The chocolate chip cookie wants me to eat it.

At work. Nothings happening. I'm checking stock for tonights floor fill, which I'm not going to but it helps make floor fill go by faster if I check our stock. I was going to ask for a raise today, but my manager just wrote everyone an e-mail saying that we need to stop being lazy and start doing our job, of course she wasn't directing it to me but the others who closed last night and left the store a mess. Whatever, I'll ask tomorrow. The beatles is playing on the store ipod, stupid boring store ipod, it hardly has any good songs (to me at least), all the hipsters in the store love the ipod, they know almost every single artist on it. Sorry I don't know who The Kickers are. The stupid cookie my manager bought for us is speaking to me and it wants me to take a nice, big bite out of it, but I say no because it's not that great of a cookie. I want it now, but after I take a bite I'll know I'll be like "that sucked." Our sales aren't doing so great today, we've only made 50 dollars the whole day, me and two other girls bought something, and I got 50% off because I'm an employee. My manager is on a thing called "conference call" it's when all the U.S. managers of this certain company get together over the phone and sometimes get yelled at by the founder of the company. I'm taking a small break from straightening and checking our stock. I should finish up soon because my manager seemed to have a pretty rough morning trying to get to work and I don't want to make her angry for whatever reason. She's a great manager, I like her way more than all the other managers I've had. Well, back to work. I'd say I'm almost done, but I clock out at four, and it's 12:36pm.... Think postive, ok, I'm ready.